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National Novel Writing Month. I’m so stuck it’s not funny, and I’m about a week behind. So, why am I here and not writing to catch up? It seems like every time I sit down to write, something happens that demands my attention and requires instant action. Now, I’m sure this is the curse of any writer, but it’s just become too overwhelming. I’ve been hurt, insulted and made to feel very small by other NaNo writers, and it’s provided me another stumbling block.
I love writing, I can’t tell you how much I enjoy it – but it’s become a burden. So unless I now feel like writing at random, I’m no longer taking part. I know I shouldn’t allow others to ruin these things for me, but I also feel that there is no point in me doing it if it is no longer enjoyable.
My mind has also clogged over this month – I’ve not been updating my blog, or reading the blogs I love. My mind feels like there is literally a block in there, so I think I need to do these other things as well to help clear my mind.
One friend insisted that I keep going because they want to read more of it – just because I’m dropping out of NaNo, doesn’t mean I won’t keep writing it over a longer period of time – I certainly intend on finishing it. It is a very important project to me.
I’ve always done NaNo, because I always feel like I fail everything – it is truly the story of my life. This is something though that I know I can do – it’s an achievement for me. I think though, this year’s achievement has been recognising when enough is enough. It can’t get in the way of my life.
I’ve missed the blogging world, I’ve missed taking photos, I’ve missed drawing. I hope to spend some time tomorrow re-adjusting myself back to normality.
All this being said, I adore the new friends I’ve made this year from the Melbourne crew of NaNo, as well as re-connecting with other members who I’ve spoken to over the last 3 years. I’m also very excited by a project that has been proposed amongst some of us. We feel that the Melbourne Writers Center here, is quite unhelpful and we have plans in progress to offer something better. Well, fingers crossed, anyway.
I hope to have some new photos for you all tomorrow, but for now my friends, it is late and I need some sleep.
Oh! My layout is currently under construction, so sorry for the lack of… pretty. ^-^
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Sorry to hear about your NaNo experience. It’s funny because my experience was almost the same. I stopped writing because I was stressing myself out and now I’m just writing for fun because I feel like it. This was my first year participating and it wasn’t the best. Maybe I’ll try again next year. Good luck to you and your other projects though.
I’m sorry to hear about your NaNo experience as well. Oddly once I posted this, my inspiration started leaking back – if I don’t make it, I won’t be bothered, it seems a little frustrating though when I now have managed to get to about 44,000 words. Considering when I gave up I was in the early twenties, I think I’ve written considerably more than I thought I would. You should definitely try again next year, if you’re part of a supportive network of writers, it is certainly a lot of fun.
Thank you.