Archive for the ‘Life’ Category
Tuesday, March 16th, 2010
What can I say? Life is good, even though I’m home from work sick today, and am thoroughly exhausted – life is good. Due to feeling so exhausted though, I feel so creatively drained and I really don’t know what to do about it. Even when I find something pretty to share with you all, my motivation is zero! It’s dreadful!
I was wondering how the rest of you deal with things like this? I know I need more sleep – but I already feel like all I do work, commute to and from work, then sleep (or at least attempt to)!
I have a few plans, but for the moment they are on hold.
Also, I’ve signed up at Last.fm – I’m there as lolascarlet if you want to add me as a friend ^-^
Hope you’re all well!
xx
Monday, March 8th, 2010
I’m not always good at communicating what is on my mind, does anyone else have this problem? Sometimes I feel like I’m the only person who feels this way and I know that it simply can’t be the case. I only seem capable of channeling one emotion at a time (otherwise I feel like I’m going to self-combust) and then there is the issue of most communication these days is online. Whether it is blogging, Facebook, Twitter, Emails, chatting clients – and you can use all the emoticons you like, but you can’t really read the emotion someone intends.
That being said, right now I would like to express my appreciation to my followers here, but also to my friends who are a part of my real life – those I meet up with and see with some level of frequency. I know I’m not always the greatest friend, and that I have my issues, but I do appreciate each and every one of you. You each bring something different to my life and that makes it interesting, and sometimes I do undervalue you and I always feel dreadful when I realise later or it is pointed out to me. I am trying to be a better person and I know I have a lot of growing up to do! I have trouble putting these things into words when I see you all, and I know this still probably isn’t very good, but I needed to say it somehow.
To my dear followers – thank you ♥ I’m working on some special things for you all right now, that I do hope you will love.
I’m not very good at expressing it – but I want you to know that you are all stars in my eyes ♥
Sunday, March 7th, 2010
First thing I did this morning was open my windows and let in the lovely cool breeze before climbing back into bed and loving the cool air on my face and the sound of gentle rain. The storms yesterday mostly missed me – we didn’t get epic hail, but the thunderstorms were unreal. I actually felt a little like a frightened child, and I love storms!
I wish today was a day where I could stay home and relax, search for new artistic inspiration etc. It’s not one of those days though – at least tomorrow is a public holiday though! I fully intend on going to bed early tonight and sleeping in tomorrow!
Hope you’re all having lovely weekends ♥
xx
Saturday, March 6th, 2010
I went to see Alice in Wonderland last night with a group of friends and while there appeared to be mixed feelings among them as to what they thought of it – I can safely say that I absolutely loved it. I fully intend on seeing it again.
I’m in a fair bit of pain at the moment. I fell off an exercise ball backwards at work the other day, and landed on the corner of some wooden stairs. Ouch! My back is just one big bruise at the moment and it hurts to move.
Wednesday, March 3rd, 2010
Work wraps up for two weeks, in three and a half weeks. I’m waiting with eager anticipation.
Saturday, February 27th, 2010
Dear Summer,
For once, I’m almost sad to see you go. I have no doubt that I will create many more wonderful memories with my friends through the other seasons, but summer seems to be the time I get to see them more. Lazy summer days lounging around on the sand at our favourite beach, and attempts at climbing onto an inflatable swan (fondly known as Ostrich) out in the ocean.
Looking forward to more fun times when you return in 9 months – until then? Bring on the months where I am much more creatively inspired!
Thank-you,
Lola
Also, recently, Liss of Daydream Lily tweeted about a pretty blog, and I have to say it is a bit of a new blog crush for me: Petticoats and High Heels. You should visit it ♥
Please Note:
You have my apologies – any posts with my photography in them (sans those of the last few days), no longer have the photographs available – I cleaned out my flickr as I was desperately dissatisfied with it. So, sorry! My flickr has new photos on it though, and I’m rebuilding what I had there so that it is (hopefully) neater and better tagged etc. Of course, new posts with my work will follow ^-^
Saturday, February 27th, 2010
Just a Minute in February
Reading
Still reading Through the Looking Glass. To be honest, I haven’t done a great deal of reading lately, which is disappointing. I really need to make more time for it. Especially as that is one of my 200 goals for 10 years.
Listening
I have some friends who recommended a lot of music to me, and I certainly intend on listening to as much of it as I can. To start with, I have been listening to a lot more Opeth, and Dream Theater. I’ve also been listening to Béla Fleck and the Flecktones, Frank Zappa, Alice in Chains, Björk, Breaking Benjamin, Butterfly Boucher, Fleetwood Mac, and the usuals: Nightwish, Within Temptation, Apocalyptica, Evanescence, Lisa Mitchell, and Kate Miller-Heidke.
Wanting
Aside from some sleep, at the moment I would really appreciate more time to blog, and to read the blogs of others. Also to just work on other creative projects I have. I feel that at the moment, I just have no time whatsoever to be myself and have me time. Working full time sucks – but it’s good to be getting some money! I also want to be more thorough when I update my blog – I know that if items of mine were to be posted elsewhere, I would want sufficient credit. I’ve been thinking about it, and typing “click for source” really isn’t sufficient enough – these people deserve more credit and for their name to be given a fair mention. Please remind me of this, if I do it again.
Making
Actually, I’m going to be making a few sensory items for work soon. I work at a school for children who have autism, and one of the students in my class is very much so into the sensory work. I’ll be making her a sensory board to walk on, and a sensory alphabet so we can start working on that.
Outside of this, I’m knitting myself two scarves ready for winter. They are both fluffy, and one is brown, the other is pink.
Loving
My friends, good music, jasmine tea, chai tea, pretty blogs, and the cooler weather that is steadily starting to roll in. Hopefully there aren’t too many hot days left – they are the reason I don’t like Summer. At least it’s almost Autumn now.
Promising
To update more frequently with better content, that is credited properly. Also promising to make March awesome.
Drinking
Lots of vanilla chai tea, and lots of jasmine tea. I’m also drinking a lot of water, and too much coke. I need to cut the last one out, it isn’t helping weightloss at all!
Hope you have all had a fabulous February!
Sunday, February 21st, 2010
click for source It’s steadily approaching that time of day where I need to start considering what I want to wear to church today: I want it to be pretty – whatever I choose – it’s difficult though as it’s going to be a warm Australian summer day, and I simply still haven’t managed to pull off enough weightloss to be truly comfortable wearing any summer attire. It’s superficial, yes, but truly – what is a girl to do?
Saturday, February 20th, 2010
Click for source. When I first got into art – I was young and had dreams and aspirations. I guess some would say I still am that, but I don’t feel young anymore, and my journey has been (like so many others) a rocky one.
During the years of my mid-teens, I was a) heavily involved in art programs and really starting to make progress, and b) starting to fall into the trap of depression. It was art, music and literature, that helped to prop me up for a while there, but anger and resentment continued to grow and bubble beneath the surface, until things blew right up and an enormous rift was torn between myself and my best friend. That was by far one of my lowest points – I got angry at him and blamed him for everything in an attempt to make myself feel better, because inside I was blaming me – looking back now though, it was probably equal blame, if blame were to be placed (I hope that it isn’t though, it seems too petty).
Fighting with him sent me further down that horrible hole I was falling into – there were no random tea-cups, and I was not chasing a rabbit – I was definitely falling down what seemed to be a never-ending hole though.
A few months later, I ended up landing myself my first (and only so far) boyfriend. We were together for almost 2 years, and for most of that time, it was an abusive relationship. I don’t want to talk about this too much – it’s far too personal. It also didn’t do a great deal to help me though.
It’s been a slow climb back to where I am today, and I know I still have a while to go. In the time where I was down though, I had the most enormous creative block, it felt as though it was physically blocking my head all the time – perpetual headache sucks.
Now though, I’ve dealt with a lot of my personal issues, discovered that my spirituality is more important than I realised, re-established and created new friendships, and while things can still be awkward, my best friend and I are making efforts to be friends again and I appreciate that. I’m generic and easily replaced, but he is one of the most eccentric people I know (and a great source of inspiration), so while he no longer classes me as his best friend – he is still my best friend. I’m okay with this though, we’re talking again and I’ve missed him. I’m also so much more inspired these days, for both my writing, art and music. It’s nice not having a block that is always there.
I need this. Blogging, I need it, to share and improve what I’m doing. I value your feedback – you’re helping me to overcome these obstacles that have fallen in my way over time.
This post is quite personal and I’m a little frightened of publishing it, but here goes nothing.
xx
Thursday, February 18th, 2010
Click for source What can I say? I do love this city I live in. I also love the storms we’ve been having of late. I wish there were some happening here now!
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